Well the past 3-4 days have been interesting. Ive maybe had a full meal twice due to the fact of my stupidity. I got a new account with 5th 3rd and changed my direct deposit to that account....but i dont even have a debit card from them yet... so i have had no money nor food for the past 3 days and am feeling the effects!
I thought i would write in here cuz now i feel like its an obligation, i havent been up to date with it.
So at work i now realize why people think im the bitch at work....because i am!
I want to get things done and not sit there and talk about dumb shit all day so i somewhat yell at people. Its not like i want to its just the product of little to no patience.
Its alreayd november tomorow and i havent even done half of what i wanted to do. i feel that this is due to lack of money and a vehicle.
If only i had the balls to ask my cousin to co sign on the car loan for me=[
well i am also breaking out like a mad women which is extremly rare for me. I maybe get one pimple a month but right now i have about a years worth on my face!
My birthday is sort of coming up and im excited because that means i will no longer be a teenager and money!
Anyways i hate being under stress of no money and no food. One thing happens right after another. ferris said i can come back without paying my bills which is extremly good, but now i have bills to pay for an apartment. and no car=/
off to the next one
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Timing
Well things are slowly starting to work out (like jon said) he always seems to be right....95% of the time.
Ferris is finally understanding the concept that i will be paying them more if they let me come in the spring then holding off a semester.... about time
I also signed my housing agreement as well. now the only problem is a car and money!
Its hard trying to save money down here given the fact i look at it this way, im only down here for two more monthes why not go out and do things i may never get to do again!
Sad note- my best friend craig got termed and i feel awful! He was one of the few people down here that i could always count on and trust even though he was a piece of shit. haha=] i plan on visiting him on my way home because he lives in ohio which i am alreayd excited for.
I hope that Jon scott and katie come to visit but at the same time i dont want them to come and be disappointed because they have alreayd been to the parks before. I am really nervous about getting the time off as well. I would hate for them to come down and ill be working! I am also nervous like i said about disappointing them. I hate to disappoint.
I am also hoping that my sister has good credit so she can co-sign for my car=] if nto im screwed unless i get the balls to ask my cousin haha. yeah right=/
anyways i love jon and am so greatful he is in my life. i quoted on facebook the other day "im nto sure what he sees in me but i am thankful he does" and it couldnt be said any better! I have treated him bad and lied to him in the past. i am now trying to change that make things right. I want to marry the kid and have his babies! baha. He literally keeps me going and i feel if i wernt with him. id be on the streets sellin coke. not really but i wouldnt be the same person what so ever! I hope i can be everything he wants me to be=]
that is all
Ferris is finally understanding the concept that i will be paying them more if they let me come in the spring then holding off a semester.... about time
I also signed my housing agreement as well. now the only problem is a car and money!
Its hard trying to save money down here given the fact i look at it this way, im only down here for two more monthes why not go out and do things i may never get to do again!
Sad note- my best friend craig got termed and i feel awful! He was one of the few people down here that i could always count on and trust even though he was a piece of shit. haha=] i plan on visiting him on my way home because he lives in ohio which i am alreayd excited for.
I hope that Jon scott and katie come to visit but at the same time i dont want them to come and be disappointed because they have alreayd been to the parks before. I am really nervous about getting the time off as well. I would hate for them to come down and ill be working! I am also nervous like i said about disappointing them. I hate to disappoint.
I am also hoping that my sister has good credit so she can co-sign for my car=] if nto im screwed unless i get the balls to ask my cousin haha. yeah right=/
anyways i love jon and am so greatful he is in my life. i quoted on facebook the other day "im nto sure what he sees in me but i am thankful he does" and it couldnt be said any better! I have treated him bad and lied to him in the past. i am now trying to change that make things right. I want to marry the kid and have his babies! baha. He literally keeps me going and i feel if i wernt with him. id be on the streets sellin coke. not really but i wouldnt be the same person what so ever! I hope i can be everything he wants me to be=]
that is all
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
one word....stress
I feel as if i continue in this cycle of stress...not having my period since ive been here is a little annoying and i know its directly related to stress. I am constantly looking for ways to build credit and pull out a loan yet no matter what i do or have isnt good enough.
The work situation....adding onto my stress...
If this guy doesnt get transfered or fired, im quitting. no questions asked!
I refuse to go to work everyday worrying if i have too much makeup on or if he will say something, or i cant eat in the break room while he is in there. absolutly no reason for it!
I am sticking with the ford taurus because its what i grew up with and loved.
I am getting a new phone tomorow so i can sell my old one and possibly make a few hundred bucks off it=]
i feel like i should talk to someone about my stress. like a medical doctor.
the reason i say this is that since ive been here ive noticed i have dizzy spells i never used to have before, im not eating nearly as much, and im constantly irritable and constantly crying.
Im waiting for the day where i just pass out of stree overdose!
i am considering asking family members to cosign loans for me so i can get that car i need. however i feel as if it is impossible =[
Manatees however was amazing! i couldnt of asked for better people to go with and a better manatee sighting! They are the gentlest giants! hence-sea cows.
my roomate pissed me off by using the last of my god damn tin foil and oh- didnt ask!
How would she like it......
i also hate how she leaves her shit in the sink for days! and it stinks!!!
I feel like no one understands the stress i go through especailly jon. I say this because he has always been smart in what ever he does. for example- he saves his money...i dont.
I dont know what to do anymore at this point=/
help
The work situation....adding onto my stress...
If this guy doesnt get transfered or fired, im quitting. no questions asked!
I refuse to go to work everyday worrying if i have too much makeup on or if he will say something, or i cant eat in the break room while he is in there. absolutly no reason for it!
I am sticking with the ford taurus because its what i grew up with and loved.
I am getting a new phone tomorow so i can sell my old one and possibly make a few hundred bucks off it=]
i feel like i should talk to someone about my stress. like a medical doctor.
the reason i say this is that since ive been here ive noticed i have dizzy spells i never used to have before, im not eating nearly as much, and im constantly irritable and constantly crying.
Im waiting for the day where i just pass out of stree overdose!
i am considering asking family members to cosign loans for me so i can get that car i need. however i feel as if it is impossible =[
Manatees however was amazing! i couldnt of asked for better people to go with and a better manatee sighting! They are the gentlest giants! hence-sea cows.
my roomate pissed me off by using the last of my god damn tin foil and oh- didnt ask!
How would she like it......
i also hate how she leaves her shit in the sink for days! and it stinks!!!
I feel like no one understands the stress i go through especailly jon. I say this because he has always been smart in what ever he does. for example- he saves his money...i dont.
I dont know what to do anymore at this point=/
help
Sunday, October 17, 2010
num num num num num=]
Well i just woke up....yah its 2:11pm thats the perks or working nights. Last nights pac attack was good at steak and shake. i feel from my last posts about being extremly stressed have made me overwhelmed the past few days. however as the days pass, it continues to look better and better with the help of my family and friends. i have learned talking is your best friend. and sometimes crying=]
but i feel like things will hopfully work out for the better and if not i know ive got the best family to see me through it=]
I am working as much as i can and as hard as i can to continue my relationship with disney=]
that is all for now. law and order is on=]
but i feel like things will hopfully work out for the better and if not i know ive got the best family to see me through it=]
I am working as much as i can and as hard as i can to continue my relationship with disney=]
that is all for now. law and order is on=]
Friday, October 15, 2010
continued....
well before bed i would like to add to the stressed and bitch about my life for thirty quick seconds;.....
i found out most of the people at work think or thought i was a bitch before they got to know me.... i look at it as me being a hard worker and getting things done the way they are supposed to be instead of just going day by day getting through work. I take every day of work as a way of "what can i accomplish" today or try to atleast.
I feel i work hard to impress coordinaters and managers because that is how i have always been... a hard worker.
I also have no idea what i am doing with my life after disney.... completly broke down tonight but came to the realizization of how blessed i am for family and friends and a great boyfriend to put me in my place. haha
i have no car.
i have no money.
i make more money in michigan selling pies.....apple or cherry?
i dont know whats next...
as of now i will try to flow with the words of jon....
"go day by day" =]
i found out most of the people at work think or thought i was a bitch before they got to know me.... i look at it as me being a hard worker and getting things done the way they are supposed to be instead of just going day by day getting through work. I take every day of work as a way of "what can i accomplish" today or try to atleast.
I feel i work hard to impress coordinaters and managers because that is how i have always been... a hard worker.
I also have no idea what i am doing with my life after disney.... completly broke down tonight but came to the realizization of how blessed i am for family and friends and a great boyfriend to put me in my place. haha
i have no car.
i have no money.
i make more money in michigan selling pies.....apple or cherry?
i dont know whats next...
as of now i will try to flow with the words of jon....
"go day by day" =]
Religious
Well this is my first ever post on any type of blog or journal.
To start off i am about 3 monthes behind on tracking my disney experience but am starting now!
Im not sure how to start these or what to write first but im just gonna start typing and see what happens
Well today i completly forgot i had class today and slept in. How do i feel about this.....awful!
i feel like i am letting myself down due to the fact that i came down here to improve my self mentally and physically and am already failing. I just about bombed my english paper yet was able to manage keeping a "b" because of the tests and quizzes ive been doing extremly well on. THANK GOD!
This point in my life though i feel extremly motivated and want to improve myself not only for myself but for Jon. He is my rock and my best friend. He is one of the main reasons why i want to improve myself! I feel like i have a long road ahead of me=[
I am also feeling very spiritual religious wise. Im not sure if its all in my head but i feel like i am thanking god a lot more than before. It could be the fact that Magic Kingdom held a "night of joy" where christian rock bands came and hosted a concert there and had to listen to it two straight nights in a row for 7 hours! But im not complaining i feel as if it lifted my spirits. Minus the mean and nasty guests!
I feel as if that is enough for now. I do feel like i should be doing this at night and recollecting my thoughts about the day so i will come back tonight and finish. For now i will leave with a joke
A suicide bomber went into a pet shop and yelled "everyone has 1 minute to get out " the turtle in the background yelled "you bastard!"
To start off i am about 3 monthes behind on tracking my disney experience but am starting now!
Im not sure how to start these or what to write first but im just gonna start typing and see what happens
Well today i completly forgot i had class today and slept in. How do i feel about this.....awful!
i feel like i am letting myself down due to the fact that i came down here to improve my self mentally and physically and am already failing. I just about bombed my english paper yet was able to manage keeping a "b" because of the tests and quizzes ive been doing extremly well on. THANK GOD!
This point in my life though i feel extremly motivated and want to improve myself not only for myself but for Jon. He is my rock and my best friend. He is one of the main reasons why i want to improve myself! I feel like i have a long road ahead of me=[
I am also feeling very spiritual religious wise. Im not sure if its all in my head but i feel like i am thanking god a lot more than before. It could be the fact that Magic Kingdom held a "night of joy" where christian rock bands came and hosted a concert there and had to listen to it two straight nights in a row for 7 hours! But im not complaining i feel as if it lifted my spirits. Minus the mean and nasty guests!
I feel as if that is enough for now. I do feel like i should be doing this at night and recollecting my thoughts about the day so i will come back tonight and finish. For now i will leave with a joke
A suicide bomber went into a pet shop and yelled "everyone has 1 minute to get out " the turtle in the background yelled "you bastard!"
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